dreams of perfection

Friday, January 01, 2010

actually i want the opposite to happen

RT @TheLoveStories: "When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left." #TLS

I've been tears-ing all day long and also in days before and the quote is quite relieving.. Though little I still wish my destiny is tied down to well, you know :)

Now I'm like, "duh, you've changed, a lot, faster, and vast." But let me cry with you, cos every post these days begins with tears written with sobs and ends with tears.. Hmm. Sounds silly, I know, and tears aren't relieving. Just makes everything worse. But the sad truth is it just oozes out -,-

Somebody help!!!!!

I wish I could carve my own ending for that poetry..

my love for you, technically

I wish I still can intertwine my fingers with you
Cause yours seemed so warm, fit so perfectly to mine
Though long gone the days of beautifully awake memories
Still can smile about it; still can't get it out of my mind

Shaping to a man
Tough as it may sound, rough as it may be
Can't always be there if you ask me
I want to be a part of it but not that way

Still wishing that I can be the girl of your life; whom you seek comfort to; whom you sing to the night
Though so far it seemed cause now the competition is on; comfort is put on the least

My heart breaks into flakes
I don't know who's in myself anymore
Questions keep popping; head's screaming
What am I doing? What should I be doing?
While I'm still so afraid to hurt you.

I want to hate the world yet it is bigger than me
I want to vanish in a blink of eye and stay right In your heart; peeking into the walls of your love

Cause your care is my comfort
Your breathing is the sound of my favorite lullaby
Your grip on my hand is the barrier from the shadow
Your kiss on my forehead spins my head right round to the top
Your perfect; satisfied; and boyish smile is one that I'm after forever
Your nervousness; anxiety makes me feel that I'm a woman and I'm needed
Your gentleness is something to boast to be proud of.

How I wish I could have you all mine, like how you have wished and struggled to have me all yours. As strong as your happiness when I called you my best boyfriend in the world.

But I don't wanna make you torn.. Forget all of these. I step back. Not every story has an happy ending

Or for us... Maybe not yet? ;) I'm trying to find a way, help me!!

Thursday, December 31, 2009

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

sorry for the late posting, but MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Hope you hav a nice xmas back then and a blast on new year's eve!! Wish 2010 brings us all good!! :)

photo credits to fashion bits and bobs

Monday, November 30, 2009

awww I love you

I'm posting this at 5 in the morning cos I just couldn't help to resist :)
My panda <3 sent me this last night and I can't help but touuuched and really touched.

Thanks hon. That's the sweetest msg I've ever received

I've made you cry a thousand times.
Litres of tears fell from your eyes.
But I'd wipe your tears a million times.
And never want to say goodbyes.

I've done a lot of mistakes.
I'll make it up whatever it takes.
I don't want any heart breaks.
I won't let your heart turns to flakes.

For time that we've been through.
I know I love you and it's true.
And whenever you're feeling blue.
I always want to be with you.

We're more than just a work of art.
Small things won't tear us apart.
Nothing will tear us apart.
We'll take everything in good part.

But time always be a bad supporter.
So let's fill our time with laughter.
Fill it with colors as if we're the painter.
Write beautiful poems as if it's a letter.

You're the music for my ears.
You pull me out from my fears.
And when the end is near.
I hope our love still stands here.

They said that nobody is perfect.
So you are the 'nobody' that they have mentioned, for me.

Yesterday's history, tomorrow's mistery, and today's gift, that's why we call it present. -taken from KFpanda.

I'm sorry for the unorganized message.
Maybe it's more like a collage.
Passage that worths more than everyone's wage.
Passage that worths more than just a passage.

I miss you.
I need you.
I want you.
I love you.

jojomsshearttessaps
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I don't care if it's actually not written by himself..
I love you too.

tessapsheartjojomss

Friday, November 13, 2009

parties!

most recent i attended:

theodora beatrix's greyish bash

thats my boya she looked pretty aiyt? :) <3 her dress!

me wore: greyish piece from godknowswhat my mom bought me, i think it's mangga dua's HAHA, zara skyscraper heels
with steve and vincent!

my own birthdaayy! :):)