year-end new-year sale

definitely on my wish list

net-a-porter's

jimmy choo Tube leopard-print clutch, $1,095 --> $438
tabitha simmons rocks - i'm currently craving for an amazing pair of wedges

and lassstttt... the pair i publicly wanted a few months ago is on sale!
the SILVERY thakoon's t'was $1,150 and now $460 (still too much to afford nonetheless) (the same one here on my SILVER post)

4 years of blogging

Happy birthday my blog! Happy birthday my blog! Happy birthday happy birthdaayy.. Happy birthday my blog!
My blog is already 4 yrs old now, its not a baby anymoreee! That also means I've been blogging for more than 5 years!


this morning when I was re-reading my blog, I noticed I didn't mention much about my past relationship here, I just realized, but there r lots of personal stuffs abt the most recent one.. Haha, weird
Aaw.. I miss the good life!

in need of distractions

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm ms. Lonely (ms. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) boy

Lonely - Akon with a little change on the gender :)

I'm hoping to see as many distraction as possible these daays..

buat jojo!

Many tears will be shed..
But good luck on your next step!

I dunno when or how r u gonna come back but I hope that's ur best decision yaaa! Thanks for the memories!

my new year resolution

Generally, I wud say:

1. No more procrastinating
2. Be Punctual!!!! Graawg
3. Pray a lot, serve people a lot, less laziness to do both of them
4. Start trying to generate some money
5. Don't be too busy for others (oh this is especially for my dear nyenye)
6. Flying colours graaade!! :):):)
7. Be the best of myself for everyone. Now I know this is big, but why not set ur resolution as high as u cud.
8. Less spending money on items I don't really need to buy soon..hahahaha, this one seems a bit hard.
9. Be more understanding! Be the girl of people! Be the girl of my family! And be the girl of someone's heart. Aahaha.
10. Follow and start doing all my resolutions and dreams!!

And the secret resolution came to inspiration from maura: trying to live a life w/o any lovey dovey relationship to a guy if I hafto! :)
(Okay, emphasize the 'if I have to', cos that doesn't mean I don't wanna be close to any kind of guy even if I fall for him, I actually do.. Cos I may try right? :))

What about yours? Hehehehe

actually i want the opposite to happen

RT @TheLoveStories: "When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left." #TLS

I've been tears-ing all day long and also in days before and the quote is quite relieving.. Though little I still wish my destiny is tied down to well, you know :)

Now I'm like, "duh, you've changed, a lot, faster, and vast." But let me cry with you, cos every post these days begins with tears written with sobs and ends with tears.. Hmm. Sounds silly, I know, and tears aren't relieving. Just makes everything worse. But the sad truth is it just oozes out -,-

Somebody help!!!!!

I wish I could carve my own ending for that poetry..

my love for you, technically

I wish I still can intertwine my fingers with you
Cause yours seemed so warm, fit so perfectly to mine
Though long gone the days of beautifully awake memories
Still can smile about it; still can't get it out of my mind

Shaping to a man
Tough as it may sound, rough as it may be
Can't always be there if you ask me
I want to be a part of it but not that way

Still wishing that I can be the girl of your life; whom you seek comfort to; whom you sing to the night
Though so far it seemed cause now the competition is on; comfort is put on the least

My heart breaks into flakes
I don't know who's in myself anymore
Questions keep popping; head's screaming
What am I doing? What should I be doing?
While I'm still so afraid to hurt you.

I want to hate the world yet it is bigger than me
I want to vanish in a blink of eye and stay right In your heart; peeking into the walls of your love

Cause your care is my comfort
Your breathing is the sound of my favorite lullaby
Your grip on my hand is the barrier from the shadow
Your kiss on my forehead spins my head right round to the top
Your perfect; satisfied; and boyish smile is one that I'm after forever
Your nervousness; anxiety makes me feel that I'm a woman and I'm needed
Your gentleness is something to boast to be proud of.

How I wish I could have you all mine, like how you have wished and struggled to have me all yours. As strong as your happiness when I called you my best boyfriend in the world.

But I don't wanna make you torn.. Forget all of these. I step back. Not every story has an happy ending


Or for us... Maybe not yet? ;) I'm trying to find a way, help me!!