growing up part 2

"mana janji manismu, mencintaiku sampai mati..." AHHAHAHA
keep singing that line over-n-over again in my head, haha. after i reread this post, guess people may wondering who i'm talking about, but yes this post is majorly dedicated to someone

over the days (though short as it may seem), i seem to grow up a hundred days ahead! :) it's like this kind of feeling that surge through you, when you finally understand things in life that go over that cycle over and over again.


life's been a bit unfair, but how could one justify their lives though? it seemed pretty difficult to move on past these 4 days but i made it alive! funny to see the desire of surviving in my body after the heart-ache on last saturday
what's unfair is that the fact people know the feeling of being brokenhearted yet they couldn't stop themselves from doing the damage, ha-ha

i reread some msgs from 8 or even 9 months ago from someone i've fallen in love to when we broke up and it was dammit sad, but then we recovered and made another special relationship going on :) it had been all beautiful till this year, the end of last month in particular, when everything complicatedly has been falling into pieces... and from here i see beauty doesn't last forever and season changes.
i really wish things would go back into its place, as in those affections, but wherever direction i step i don't see any affections coming back.


maybe this is a part of growing up, maybe this isn't, yet it's a part of life that i can't skip, haha. let's see how God justifies and leads my life after this... :)