say no to hectic life

i've been drowning in exhaustion a lot these days, flying off from headache to another headache after staying till the darkest hours in the morning... of course, the causes hadn't always been studying.
it seems that life's putting so much happiness and new stuffs within :)

i had been going to kemang for 2 weeks in a row every saturday night, it feels weird to have such an uncommon place to chill out and spend my weekend, so unlikely with the usual going outs to malls and parties and stuffs.

i miss those partying days! :) now that most of my friends have turned 17, its only ribka's birthday next week that i could look forward to for another party. well, yeah. people get older. (and the troubles that follow get so much more complicated :( )

i just read my sister blog again (after a long time) and amazed by the amount she has grown up. she's an amazing blogger! check her blog out at http://shintawijnayu.blogspot.com
i think i'm gonna help her make a better layout for her blog once i have lots of spare time ;)

partied down the night last saturday at cheryl's, my best friend :). i'm so gonna miss high school, can't believe it's only a month from now before i'm finished with all these high school stuffs.
it hasn't struck me though. damn it, i think it's only yesterday that i got into SMAK 1 and got thru the orientation days, taking the staircases to 8th floor, etc, :(

ribka and me, cheryl's party at segarra

me wearing: zara s/s 11 tanktop, trf night sequined skirt, xsml loose nude cardigan, zara a/w 10 patent leather pumps

i wish days like that happen everyday instead of this school final examinations i'm having tomorrow ;( wish me all the best of luck health and spirit please!

plagued heart

The ones we love tend to stay in our hearts and minds long after the relationship ends. While some move on quickly, others dwell and heal at a slower pace. Whatever the case, the thoughts, emotions and memories we experience during this time are heartwrenchingly powerful and real.



- read it somewhere. explains a lot.

intervention

My surrounding is full of conflicts these days; the clock never stops spinning, so do troubles swinging around human. Felt terrible to see my country in such a disgraceful state that you wanna think twice before leaving comments upon its people... moreover its government.
I'm not saying I know much about justice or those hardcore stuffs about law, but in fact this country needs to be shaken with lots of groundbreaking breakthrough in some political areas. Its frustrating to see how some bad guys could have the power to rule over amazingly massive people and remain untouchable by the law.

For some major point I'm talking here, let's see the phenomenal case of this country's renowned author/activist/young bright mind: Alanda Kariza whose mother respectively got accused in one of the most SUPERSTITIOUSLY suspicious massive-corruption case in the country: the Century gate. She got punished by 10 years of imprisonment & charged with IDR 10 billion, when in fact the owner of the bank itself got punished only by 8 years!
Simply wonderful it is, the action of those politic&overly-powered and money-equipped gangsters in this country!

Apart from all this political conflicts there are also some social instability due to religion&beliefs differences.
There's no more spirit of unity and harmony in people and I see this huge tendency from people of all backgrounds to shape their minds to a more individualistic society...
What a world! I don't dream a day of living in Jakarta but facing people with as much individual minds as if I'm living in more hectic city as London.

Hopefully this cracks up a bit real soon! Like really, I'm not being idealistic, but seriously this whole situation needs to adapt to the new world. We need to change!

desirably free

got nothing to do nothing to lose :*
i'ven't had proper sleep for days now. my muscles all stiffen. i wanna party! i wanna get out from my routine! yet all i can manage is just... this.
wish i could wear the whole attire not in daytime right now..

trf night blazer, bloop/endorse animal print skirt

there goes my fave mango tank top but can't find it on store anywhere now. need to buy some basic stuffs considering my nomaden condition right now .. commuting from pulo mas to senayan -.- (with addition of some of my tops are gone missing). well.

life's been hectic, if not crazy. i need to seize my time between studying for school, the UN exam, school final exam (this year they held final exam on all subjects! ITS CRAZY!), studying social science materials due to university entrance test considering economics is the major i'm after.. and apart of that, managing school prom and yearbook design as one of the committees.

wish me luck.

realization

Kadang memang kita paling susah menyadari bahwa yg kita butuhkan sebenernya udah didepan mata dan udah ada bersama kita...nggak harus ditunggu, atau dicari lagi.

:'(

wishlist for january!

this time, one of these things better be in my wardrobe fo sho!

Nikicio Femme Resort 2011 : Pleather Longer Back Shift Dress
been wanting this dress since the fashion show!

Ash (Booties) : Madonna Wedge Sneakers
anyway, those boots from Ash do wonders. I wanna own a pair. HHHHH. gotta check their collection some time here. mamaaaaaaaaa ...

Cheap Monday Collection Autumn/Winter 2011 : Narrow Ripped and Sewn Skinny Jeans
total love. I need black skinny jeans like pronto.

anybody?

4 years of blogging

hip hip hooray! my blog is now already 4 years old, and counting, definitely!
i posted the same birthday post a year ago, and the memory of typing that post is still fresh in my mind like it was just yesterday!

i re read some of my blog posts on january last year, especially the one i made on january 1st, whoa. things have changed so much in a year, and right now i call those lovey dovey things i wrote of myself a year ago as my past already. last year's currents have become this year's past, yeah. pretty much changes have happened lately.

looking back at my 2010's resolution, i'm quite proud :) because i certainly have successfully developed something overtime. on my post a year ago i wrote about the "secret resolution" part which was inspired by a friend of mine, Maura, which is "to get used to living single (as in not in a rltnship) if i have to". i'm successfully doing right now... i pass with flying colors, if this were an exam, if you ask me. hahaha and that result didn't come overnight, it was something after months of gruesome "moving on, letting go, fight, and pray" after my break up last year. haha.

by the way, i'm currently at the peak of my life right now. so far 2011 hasn't really disappointed me in a way a disappointment could come at its worst! feel glad, cos therefore i don't have so much bleak perspective towards the upcoming days of the year :), instead i'm quite positive that the year is gonna be mine to rock on!
i have the loveliest best friends in the whole world and am enjoying my freedom days. certainly there are always rough patches on the path, but i'm not in the mood to sink into bottom. the peak always feels greatest if you reach it after the rock bottom :)

i have many goals for this year, especially for the graduation and entering university part! geez, time really flies right? i've made up my mind and now i'm oh-so after a seat in the Faculty of Economics in University of Indonesia! pray for me, eh? hopefully next year i'm gonna be wearing the yellow jacket! Amen.

right now i also participate in both yearbook and senior prom committees. hopefully things would be neat, punctual, and running smoothly till my senior year ends!

OH MY GOD, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, THIS YEAR I'M LEAVING HIGH SCHOOL!
(i used to be not so excited about the prospect... but after passing half of my senior year, it seems like quite an experience!)