yeay yeay yeay MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING TO TOWN IN 2 DAYS :D
baha. but it also means getting older.. older. old but still s-t-u-p-i-d.

anyway tomorrow i'm going to watch a7x concert, anyone's coming? hahaa

i've been so loaded up with school stuffs lately--cant make me any busier. i need more than 24 hours in a day. eww

more bad news is 2 of my bestbestbestbestfriends are going abroad to singapore by the end of the year. no, like next month and on dec. i hate singapore and their government for taking my friends, for offering them such place in that country argh.
and the ones which will be going abroad are gordy and darwin, both are my childhood friends. ahh im gonna miss them so much (and i've cried 4 times today because they're leavinggg huhuhu). first nadia, now them. oh please

would someone please grant me a one-day break from this train of tiring stuffs

Padi!

baha yesterday when i was on my way home from school, i heard this mahadewi song from padi when i was switching through the radio stations. it really reminded me of my old fav band : padi! (afterall it was their song huh) and well, that made me listening to padi's songs for the whole nite, playing it over and over again on itunes.
ive been a huge fan of them since i was.. umm, a 5thgrader maybe.
they made great songs, with poetic lyrics, and since i cant make such poetic words, their songs' were really inspiring when it came to bahasa indonesia tasks to make poems ba-ha
okay some of you may think that indonesian bands = alay-ish -_- but, well, padi is not one of alayyyys!!

one of my fav songs' lyric:
Semua Tak Sama
Dalam benakku lama tertanam
Sejuta bayangan dirimu
Redup terasa cahaya hati
Mengingat apa yang telah kau berikan
Waktu berjalan lambat mengiring
Dalam titian takdir hidupku
Cukup sudah aku tertahan
Dalam persimpangan masa silamku
*Coba tuk melawan getir yang terus kukecap
Meresap ke dalam relung sukmaku
Coba tuk singkirkan aroma nafas tubuhmu
Mengalir mengisi laju darahku
Reff.
Semua tak sama, tak pernah sama
Apa yang kusentuh, apa yang kukecup
Sehangat pelukmu, selembut belaimu
Tak ada satupun yang mampu menjadi sepertimu
Apalah arti hidupku ini memapahku dalam ketiadaan
Sgalanya luruh lemah tak bertumpu hanya bersandar pada dirimu
Ku tak bisa (sungguh) tak bisa
Mengganti dirimu dengan dirinya,
Back to *, Reff

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huhu so sweeeeeeeeeeet haha. you know what, these days i'm currently listening (back to) soul jazz, mellow, pop songs like daniel powter's, jason mraz', amy winehouse', and even nat king cole's when i fall in love pleases me. hahaha

wonder if someone sings one of love songs + plays an instrument for me. ill melt into puddle of mud maybeeee hahaha :)

gw mau post gak jelas lagi. berhubung (katanya bokap) gw lagi (aga) setres.

kemaren, seharian gw ngerjain pr fisika. dari jam 11 pagi sampe 11 malem, 12 jam. gaul gak tuh. hahaha, tapi pas malem minggunya gw tidur pagi gitu sekitar jam 1. alhasil, karena hari2 sebelumnya gw tuh pulang dari puncak masuk angin dan belum begitu sembuh, kemaren i nearly killed myself (lebay... ba ha) pokoknya sakit kepala amat sangat.
gila gua ngerjain pr fisika kinematika minta bantuin bokap aja rasanya gak ngerti2 (padahal hari ini gw kayanya ngejelasin ke orang fine2 aja abahaha).

terus masa gw took a nap gitu, dan gw mimpi kaya menggapai2 di jurang.
buat tidur aja susaaaaaaaaaaaaaah banget. bahkan gw sblm tidur terus menerus kepikiran grafik V (kecepatan) soal latian no 2. haha

blkgan ini gw sering susah banget tidur nih. ada ajaaaaaaaa pikiran di kepala gw. bahkan mikirin gw bakal kawin sama kambing nggak kalo putus sma pun pernah (ya nggak lah ya, becanda). tapi yg jelas hal2 yang gak perlu pun akhirnya gw pikirin, jadi malah sakit kepala kalo mo tidur (di pelipisnya gitu). terus pas bangun, di bawah mata + pelipis gw sakit.

ada yg pernah mengalami hal yang sama? gw bisa sinting nih tiap hari kalo kaya gini.

lanjut, stop stressnya.

ada kabar baik!
gua kepikiran ide buat layout baru! (baru kepikiran doang buset). berhubung lagi krisis ekonomi, gw pengen ikut berduka cita buat AS. dan gw agak bingung apa pertimbangan orang2 yang justru migrasi ke US hari2 begini hahahaha.
ternyata dunia itu menyeramkan ya. dan ternyata kabar baik gua amat sangat gak penting.

kemaren gitu gw ntn film di hallmark sepotong. pas gw ntn adegannya tuh ada ibu2 sama anaknya, kaukasian, lagi jalan2 di phillipines. terus pas ibunya lagi nyoba daster etnik gitu, anaknya ngeliat kalung2, eh tiba2 dibawa sama mobil gitu.
abis gitu ibunya baru nyadar terus mereka lapor polisi. terus katanya tuh anak sih paling dibawa sindikat WTS gitu. widih.
ada lagi mbak2 dikirimin surat bakal jadi model di NY. sampe di NY gak taunya juga ditipu sindikat begituan.
ada pula tante2 dipacarin sama bachelor gitu. eh gak taunya si cowo itu juga anggota mafia! widih! serem banget ya kalo punya pacar kayak gini (untung gw gak punya pacar mwehehe :P). akhirnya ini cewe juga kena.

nah gw membayangkan gw yang sering pergi2 sendirian (bwehehe kabur :P:P) tiba2 diculik begituan pasti KO juga............. huhuhu.
maksud gw bagi2 cerita film ini sih bukannya mau bikin temen2 (trutama yg cewe, dan suka jalan2 sendiri) serem, tapi makin waspadalah, waspadalah! aja.. :D

aku tak mau kalian kenapa2 hehehe :):) so look after yourself girls. (metooha-ha)

another thing is, gw mo pengumuman bahwa fisika gw lagi bljr gerak lurus. dan matematika sedang belajar fungsi kuadrat. JADI, kalo ada temen seumur (syarat dan ketentuan berlaku) mau berdiskusi biar kita sama2 makin pinter mengenai topik ini... sangat amat welcome. soalnya kayanya kalo gak gw omongin terus menerus lama2 gak ngerti2 nih gw.
(anyway jgn harap bahwa gw anak jenius yang nyari murid untuk di-lesin ya bahaha. mencari teman untuk bertanya jawab) muach :P

udahan dulu sebelum sakit kepala gw datang. bubay. <3

halo halo
udah lama kayaknya gua nulis gak jelas. gua lagi gak jelas dan kepanasan karena nyalain ac = global warming. huah. ngomong2 gua udah lama ga ngebahas global warming. kayanya semua orang skrg udah lupa sama global warming, semuanya ngebahas bailout nya AS aja sama ketakutan resesi ekonomi, dasar manusia.

gila kayanya paragraf pertama gak jelas banget ya. males banget nih senen udah sekolah, huah. gw pengen stop sekolah trus langsung kawin aja deh, tapi masa depan suram banget ya? siapa yang mau kawin sama anak putus sekolah sma, kambing? hahaha. tapi toh 6 dari 10 orang paling kaya di dunia versi taun kapan gitu tuh cuman drop out sekolah, bill gates aja gak lulus dari harvard, mereka based dari pengalaman kerja dan hardwork dan taking risks aja. ba-ha-ha

hari ini ada yg ultah! JOVITA CALLISTA happy birthday ya hunny! :). wish you all the best, anyway kapan kita jalan2 lagi sama putri sekalian godain toddlers yang lewat, haha.

dan ngomong2 soal hunny, gua lagi kangen sama my hunny bunny yang entah ada dimana where are you darling yg jelas kayaknya sms gua belum dibales. tapi yaudahlah mungkin lagi menikmati hidupnya sendiri. hahaha. gua kadang grateful banget ada orang yg sayang sama gua (cie gw curhat2 dikit), padahal gua segini aneh dan wildnya. liat aja, gua bisa ngepost kayak gini. gaul, hahah.

19 hari lagi gua ulang tahun loh (skrg tgl 4 :P), jadi, berhubung gua udah pengumuman disini, dimohon sodara2 jangan lupa ya. hahaha tai banget gak sih gw.

eh gw perhatiin skrg pertumbuhan blogger di circle of friends gw meningkat pesat sat sat lho. banyak aja yg ngeblog skrg. padahalllll, dulu... whoa sepi rasanya blog gua. haha.

gw kangen sekolah tapi gak pengen belajar fisika sama mat. duh, pengen masuk ipa tapi kok rasanya enek ya belajar fisika mat. gw cuman pengen belajar biologi kimia. hahahaha.
ada gak sih sekolah yang ipanya gak ada fisika mat? haha

tadi di awal gw udah ngebahas bailout nya AS. wih, tadi pagi baca koran kok kayanya ngeri ya. kemaren gw nonton debat nya sarah palin vs joe biden sepotong2, sangat gaul, kata biden AS ngeluarin 10 miliar dollar AS/bulan buat perang di irak. kenapa gak duit segitu disimpen aja yah pak bush, daripada skrg repot ngeluarin 700 miliar. keasikan perang2an ya? ;_;
kalo baca koran rasanya udah mau perang dunia ke 3, si rusia vs georgia skrg bawa2 ukraina segala, wihi. serammm.. mana anak2 asia dikasih minum melamin terus makin lemah lah kita, hahaha.

aduh gua kangen gunung! kemaren gua baru pulang dari puncak rasanya udaranya asik banget. gila di jakarta mah kepanasan rasanya nyiumnya apek doang. brzztt. gw cuman 2 hari semalem sih, tapi lumayan lah yaaaa..

gw naik kuda lhoh di villa nya :D haha. terakhir kayaknya waktu gw masih sd gitu di lembang.

yaudah deh, udahan aja.

Hullo! hullo! I think the picture has represented all I need to say :), selamat Idul Fitri buat semua yang rayain, maafin gua ya kalo ada yg salah huhu.

Anyway,
seiring dengan libur Idul Fitri, otomatis pasti Liburaaaaan! Blah blah biasanya gw sangat senang liburan, tapi khusus tiap taun gw paling sebel kalo libur Lebaran. Bukannya apa, tapi : pembantu pulang! Bah, means doing houseworks yang piling up terus menerus dan nyokap yang ngomel karena gw males HA HA HA. What a holiday I cant enjoy.

Yayayay I'm in a really deally bad mood rite now because Jakarta is so panas dannnn gw mau diajak ke Puncak tapi males karena ada temen2 nyokap wihi. dan katanya cowo keren anak temen nyokap gw gak ikut jadi I'm not really looking forward. Udah gitu pr numpuk lagi whoa.

In my short term wishlist now ada 5 items yang urgently needed: Brisingr, 3 buku Stephenie Meyer, dan dompet (mau yg Fossil... [Gor, ayo! BAHAHA]!) nyaaaaaah I guess anyone yg mau beliin gua the whole lot would be my BFF (ha ha kidding).

Okay, sekian curhatnya. gw nampaknya semakin mirip singa karena dari kemaren pagi belom keramas nya-ha. bubaaay!

I need a break

..seriously

Okay, I know that's stupid. But I just feel that my life is piled with stuffs that is just unsatisfying as it was.. the thing is, now I cant really manage my time between having fun time with friends and studying or working on my ever so piling assignments, homeworks, and exams. If I choose one, I'd just sacrifice the other one--which is not good, uh? (I give a bold here, because, well, actually I should balance it right? ha-ha, which I don't)

On weekends usually there are intolerable amount of homeworks for Monday. I also have to study on some materials which I haven't comprehended too (well, maybe part of it because I dont have any afterschool lesson course. too lazy to even think about it for the time being.. ahah)
BUT, also on weekends, there are friends' invitations for hanging out, chilling, or just going out and about. ha-ha. How could I manage this? How could I keep up? What should I choose?
I dont know hahahaha.

Perhaps it's just me who isn't that smart to just keep up with school, but the thing is, I need both good scores and good friends&network. Going to school just doesn't give me enough socializing experience. Ha-ha-ha

What would you choose if you were me? hahaha.
- Go on with standard marks, have a life outside school
- Study hard for higher marks, have oh-so-little-knowledge and network outside school

oh god.

Wew, it's a pity that the last post was made on June, which means three months ago. I feel sorry for my self. Life couldn't be more hectic these days, even I currently am having flu.

Paraaa! my profile is updated : I'm already a tenth grader now, in a different school : SMAK 1 PENABUR -- which isn't really a good thing. I mean it's better here, heterogen and stuffs, but I really have to study a lot (which I did, and do)

And anyway, someone fills my day now, hahaha. My love life is all bloomy bloomy at the moment :D. but I wont write about him here, nothing except that we're not in a relationship! hahaha. Life's better without boring commitments.

All that I can say is sorry for those who had linked my blog on their blog, because I haven't linked you back : well now I've updated it actually.

Well thats all... (this post is a little pathetic for me I guess), got to go. I really miss the joy of writing my thoughts here. but my schedule just wont let me do it.